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Where Has Niara Been?

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It’s seemed forever to me since my last post. I’m going through a very hard time right now and the transition phase I’m in looks like it will take several more months, but I thought I would share with my readers a little of what has been happening.

I finished my book and it was published in November, 2013. The work of it and the emotions of writing it left me in great need of rest and recovery. In writing the book, I at last gave myself full permission to start feeling my feelings about the horrific experiences I have gone through. In the midst of that, I found out my boyfriend had been lying to me and seeing another woman behind my back, likely from the very beginning of our relationship in fall of 2011. I threw him out of my life. It was like suddenly losing my best friend and lover, or at least a person I thought was that for me.

I was devastated. In addition, without the passion and work on the book drivng me any more, kind of creating a bubble in which I worked on the book, the effects of living in an apt that has been continually triggering my PTSD began to really take a huge toll on my health. I don’t sleep well here, have not for many years since with the continual slamming my nervous system never gets a chance to calm down.  The downstairs neighbor continually slams her front door so the floor shakes under my feet and it also knocks the pictures crooked on the walls. She also slams and bangs her interior doors and cabinets – it’s like she never learned to simply shut things in her life, but only slam and bang.

I am in the process of trying to move out of here at last, but there are financial restrictions on what I can have that are making this a long drawn out kind of torture, waiting-waiting-waiting for the right thing to come along. I have not been able to work or write or do any of the other things I might be able to do in a place that gives me enough peace to think clearly. I’m just in a waiting mode, waiting for the right place to come along that will give me a new start. Life has ground completely to a halt where I am living. There are more difficulties going on in my life right now besides these, but hopefully it’s not necessary to give an entire laundry list. Suffice it to say that right now, with all the problems that have been thrown my way this past year, continuing to today, I feel completely bound and – mostly, except for this post today – gagged. So, being sleep deprived, PTSD constantly triggered and being being a nervous wreck is taking a terrible toll. I also deal with daily chronic pain.

I have a lot of plans and ideas for more writing, and more work I would like to offer the world, but with this impending move, my life is in boxes right now while hoping the right home will appear soon… I am in a waiting mode, living, at least for now, an existence where I can’t really move forward in any meaningful way. The one bright spot in my life is my new dog. She has helped me enough to get to the place that I can even write this post.

To this end, since I’m not able to do any work to generate a little more badly needed income right now, I am placing a “Donate” link on my websites. If you can give, and feel in your heart you would like to give something, any amount would be welcome. Thank you in advance from my heart to yours.

DONATE

Someday, I will resurface with more information, more teaching and more to offer this world I live in, which is my heartfelt desire. Many, many blessings to you my friends and followers who may help in advance.

Much Love,
Niara

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Close Encounters of the Intimate Kind: An Interview with Richard Dolan

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I recently had an wonderful in depth interview with Richard Dolan, who I consider one of the most respected and skilled researchers in the UFO field. He is a great person as well, and I’m very fortunate to count him as one of my friends.

Here is a link to Richard’s website:
www.richarddolanpress.com

In this interview, we discuss a fascinating and challenging topic – the Greys, or Zeta Riticulans and their hybridization program and their necessary study of human sexuality in their endeavors and how it impacts human lives and human sexual expression. Not terribly easy for me to go on public radio and discuss such things that have personally affected me, but very necessary, because I know this has affected others in similar ways, no matter which way the sexual pendulum swung for them – either being over-sexed or completely shut down sexually or both at differing periods of their lives. I put this information out in my book as well so that ET or even also MILAB or mind control abuse survivors can begin to understand the deeper reasons for their perhaps challenging sexual behavior – or their lack of it. The quest for people like us is to heal, to bring our attention and consciousness to bear on what we have experienced, how it has affected us, feel our feelings about it, and then begin to build a picture of what “healthy sexuality” means to us. I have spent a great deal of time on my own healing in this way, and have conducted workshops for women and even mixed groups on exploring what healthy sexuality means on an individual basis – because it can differ from person to person. I will explore these subjects further in a future post.

Here is the interview:

 

 

I’ll be watching any comments and will do my best to respond in a post or video later on. Due to the sensitive nature of this interview, I ask that only respectful and earnest questions or comments be posted. If you are interested in my book, here is a link to my earlier book release post:

https://facingtheshadowembracingthelight.com/2013/11/08/four-years-birthing-facing-the-shadow-embracing-the-light-on-11112013/

An ebook edition that can be read on other e-readers than Kindle will be coming soon as well!

I’m off in a few days to speak at the Super Soldier Summit in Las Vegas, NV! For those not attending in person, there will be a livestream that can be purchased to watch the summit from where you are! The subject of my talk is “Who’s Really In Charge?” where I’ll be discussing all the elements on our world that seem to be trying to take total control – of our politics, of our money, our food, water, environment – almost every aspect of our lives. But are they really the ones’ truly “in control”? My final conclusion may be a surprise for many!

Here are links to the 2014 Super Soldier Summit III website and Facebook page, for more information:

www.supersoldiersummit.com

www.facebook.com/SuperSoldierSummit1

 

Heartfelt thanks for watching and reading… Be well.

Inlakech ~ “I am another yourself”

Niara

Four Years: Birthing Facing the Shadow, Embracing the Light on 11/11/2013

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Updates to this post!

For Kindle readers and others in other countries, the Kindle edition of my book is ready and online at Amazon.com in the USA and other countries. Please check the Amazon.com website in your location if you’d like a copy. Here is a link to the USA Amazon website offering the Kindle version: 

Facing the Shadow, Embracing the Light; Kindle version

Also, I just found out that for those in Australia or New Zealand who want to order a book, you can order them through the Amazon UK website and get reasonable shipping to your region. I really regret that I can’t send books down there – it costs 2 to 3 times the cost of the book itself to ship “down under” or overseas anywhere actually.

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Finally! The book release date is here! For those who have been waiting, my book, Facing the Shadow, Embracing the Light: A Journey of Spirit Retrieval and Awakening is ready to buy, for those who’ve been waiting for it to come out. 

I feel so much appreciation to everyone who supported me during this long process with their friendship, with holding space and more. There are no words to express the gratitude I feel for all of you.

IMPORTANT!!  IF YOU ARE ORDERING FROM OUTSIDE THE CONTINENTAL USA:

If you are ordering from outside the continental USA, please order the book from Amazon.com – simply go to the Amazon site for your country and order it from there. Shipping books to locations outside the continental USA costs as much as the book itself and in some cases, costs 2 or 3 times the cost of the book.

A signed copy directly from me for $22 + $5 shipping and handling [$27 total] by clicking the book image to the right:

To buy from my CreateSpace Store front (no signed copy, but faster to get your copy), click here:

Niara’s CreateSpace Store

If you want the signature note to address you or someone else, please let me know in the special instructions section of the PayPal ordering page.

Learning to Cry

“The deeper that sorrow carves into your being, the more joy you can contain.”
~ The Prophet, by Kahlil Gibran

I have been through extraordinary trauma; trauma that warps the mind and makes the soul weep, even when my body, conditioned to be stoic and “show no weakness” couldn’t let the weeping happen.

Fortunately, at long last, I am learning to cry; indeed, I can’t really prevent it any more. When I am moved by either grief, beauty or some other upwelling of emotion, I find myself crying. It’s as if some dam of stoicism has cracked and all kinds of tears are pouring forth at times; tears of sadness, grief, of relief, even of joy.

I can only say that it’s better to be able to weep than not. In the past, when I could not allow myself to cry to the point it seemed my ability to cry had been shut off, the internal pressure of needing an outlet for grief and not being able to get it out by giving vent to tears had me feeling like I might implode.

A New Way of Being in the World

In trying to digest way too much from the “information superhighway” that is the internet, and feeling total information overload, another big insight is making a shift from being an information and learning junkie (I’m a lifelong learner and love learning new things!) to being far more inward-focused and moving from my own inner center, listening to impulses to do this or that or just “be.” I still want to learn as needed, but will be tuning in much more deeply to following my inner guidance on what I need moment to moment. I am coming to feel – and trust – that by staying centered as much as possible, moment to moment, I can be guided to what I most need in that same moment. No need to pile on tons upon layered tons of outer data and information “just in case.”

My wonder questions: What could I learn by following my impulses, by making space inside myself for the innate wisdom I might not have even realized was in there because I’m looking outside of myself so much of the time? What knowledge might be seeded within my soul, waiting for an outlet, waiting for a special new way of listening to see what might emerge? I don’t know, but I’m excited to learn new ways of deep listening within to find out. I will be finding ways to put myself in the path of this newer way of being, opening more and more to intuitive guidance, more and more to moving on my inner impulses as much as possible.

First-time Author Learning Curves

I guess I’m a rank amateur when it comes to being a new author. There is so much more to self-publishing a book than I imagined! Next book, I’ll be much wiser. And most likely there will be more books. Right now, I’m in an “aversion to technology mode” out of necessity to get my body back in shape after 4 years of sitting, writing, editing and formatting. After all the work on Facing the Shadow, Embracing the Light, it’s time for me to give some tender-loving-care to myself for a while. Writing the book has been a vital part of my healing process… remembering, writing, expressing, sharing. And I’ve discovered in my trauma recovery work studies that the kind of back problems I have are directly related to the sexual assaults I suffered during my experiences. But I believe in the complete resiliency of the body to heal when given the right opportunities, beginning within the realm of consciousness.

Managing My Electronic Life…

Sometime in the future, reworking how I use the internet, including email, Facebook, and other digital means of communication, I’ll be creating more blog postings, written and video. In the comments sections below such entries, I’ll be paying attention to questions that people pose to me about my experiences, and I may create a Facebook group for the same purpose. I will do my best to address these questions in writing or in a short video.

I plan to do some teleconference calls with groups of people where questions can be answered in an interactive, real-time setting. Because for all the people who have suffered trauma in one way or another who resonate with my way of working with people and trauma, I want to be there for you as I can. If you are a person who needs deeper work in this area, please visit my About Body-Centered Therapy page at my sister website, Encounters with Healing to learn more about me and my skills and talents in this area, not the least of which is having gone through the process myself.

Posts on this website and on my Encounters with Healing website will diverge from here on… Encounters with Healing will be more devoted to the healing arts, especially as pertaining to trauma, and teaching about consciousness expansion. Facing the Shadow, Embracing the Light will be for sharing new learnings and insights about extraterrestrials, disclosure and much more about the forces impacting and shaping our world today.

I sincerely hope the book does well out in the world, as of today. I poured into it all my love of this planet, of all life here, and especially my love of humanity and the wonderful things we can become if we can accept our differences and unify to celebrate the hearts and souls that we essentially are, that simply want to love and be loved in return. From my heart to all of yours, I wish you all your highest and best personal and spiritual evolution.

In’lakech – I am another yourself,
Niara

Writing, Editing, Proofing… Done!

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Well, I wondered if this day would ever come, but it has. I’ve finished all work on the book and it’s off for formatting for self-publishing. Lots of obstacles kept popping up, but I’ve finally prevailed!

I’ll post here again when the book is available for sale! Right now I need to jump into a whole new set of tasks, especially finishing up my Trauma Releasing Exercises training. Still have to complete Level II to work with groups. More tasks to do as well on all kinds of things that have been on hold for a long time due to book work!

Thanks for reading…

Warmly,

Niara

Update on the Book…

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For those following here who are waiting for the book to come out, I thought I’d post an update.

There have been so many little delays cropping up – internet being down for a few days, Mercury retrograde interruptions and distractions, and perhaps me overestimating just how much work I can humanly do in a day, especially still having chronic back pain that limits how much sitting I can do each day. If only I could just work and not eat, sleep or grocery shop! And, skip things like Thanksgiving, etc. and one risks being called a grinch about holidays. So it seems I am keeping up with life as well as working to keep up with publishing the book!

I did just accomplish a major milestone this week: I finished all the edits from my editor for the entire manuscript. I now have a fresh copy that I will be reading through – as quickly but as accurately as possible – and will then be working on uploading it to a self-publishing website for formatting and publication.

Other things that slowed work down on the book were finishing up a new Level I certification in Trauma Releasing Exercises (TRE), but this is a very worthwhile “distraction” from the book work. It’s very important to me to have skills in place for helping others recover from trauma. The process of TRE – a series of exercises designed to fatigue the muscles of the feet, legs and lower torso enough to bring on body tremors, these tremors being the trauma release mechanism all living organisms inherently have within. Human beings have the unique capability of suppressing their natural tremoring for trauma release, often because they don’t want to appear to have lost control of themselves. So TRE is a way of retraining the body to get back in touch with it’s natural trauma releasing process.

I will be working on my Level II TRE certification in the new year, which will allow me to work with groups – and after the completion of the book!

Many Blessings,

Niara

Writing Done, Editing in Work!

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My book, “Facing the Shadow, Embracing the Light” is nearing completion after 4 years of work. I hope to have it in publication by this fall, sooner if possible. Because the subject of trauma recovery has been so important to me personally, I am taking additional professional certification training in trauma recovery so that I can be of the most help possible for those who need such services and have not known who to turn to for help in a society in denial of the UFO and ET phenomenon. It’s taking some time away from editing, but it will be well worth it for those who need this kind of assistance who read my book and see my own map to recovery.

Please follow my website here or contact me via email if you would like to be notified when my book will be published and available.

This book will be like getting two books in one. Many people encouraged me to split it into two books, but I felt it had to be in one book. To split it into two books would be to take a person on my personal difficult and challenging “adventure” and then at the end, deny them the fulfillment of that journey of experiences, then healing and awakening.

It is for those who love a good, non-fiction spiritual story of a person overcoming tremendous personal adversity; a process of spirit retrieval… changed, evolved, strengthened and awakened by the journey.

It is also a story filled with information for those new to the UFO/extraterrestrial phenomenon, and researchers and others who have been interested in this subject for many years. It contains a great deal of information about the phenomenon and a spectrum of spiritual and scientific viewpoints intended to bridge the gap between hard science factions, conspiracy theory advocates and those with more spiritual viewpoints. I draw on material and models in quantum mechanics that lend understanding to how spiritual and psi abilities manifest and work. I also feel this gives us a model to understand extraterrestrial intelligence, capacities and technology, technology that demonstrates abilities that span dimensions of space and time.

Lastly, it addresses the political, social and environmental crucible that our world has become, especially since 2001, and how it may be affecting all of us as a catalyst, individually and collectively, to create the evolutionary pressure for a major positive shift in consciousness at this precise time in human history.

Thank you for your interest and for visiting my new blog…

In’Lakech (I am another yourself),

Niara

Working, Learning, Living

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Finished!

I was elated to finally be finished with the writing of my book. But editing is proving to be more time-consuming than I thought. Especially with some certification trainings I’ve added to be prepared to work with people on healing trauma once I’m “out there” again.

I appreciate all those who have waited for this book for some time now and I am keeping the faith with you, working on finishing the book as soon as possible. It may be this fall, though I will do my best to make that publication sooner!

Thank you from my heart to yours for your patience and your kind attention to me and the story of my experiences.

And stay tuned for updates on the book!

In’Lakech,

Niara